I made a terrible mistake, although i belive i deserved it , can someone help me ? i cant take this anymore =[

You can never go back to the way things were.With hindsight, you would have played things differently,ok, but its too late.All you can do is learn from this, and not make the same mistakes again.and again. Although it feels really sh8tty,you just have to pick yourself up,dust yourself off, and get on with your life. There will be other girls, Even tho rite now it seems like you are the only one who ever felt this bad, the same thing is happening all around you, all the time, to lots and lots of people. They get over it, and so will you, I promise! By all means, have a bit of a rant or a cry, thats only natural,and to be expected.Get it OUT of your system, and move on.She seems to have done. Girls always bloody do quicker than Lads for some reason. Keep your dignity, put a brave face on it, and remember, nobody likes a whiner! Good Luck,I m sure you'll be fine.